HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN A MEDIUM?

By far, the most common question that I am asked: “How long have you been a medium?”

The answer is, since the day I was born. I don’t actually know life without this. As you can imagine, this made life quite confronting as a child. I was painfully shy and quiet and quite an anxious little girl. I have lots of memories of seeing and feeling spirits in my childhood home that always really confused and frightened me. I always liked school so I immersed myself in academia however I distinctly remember my favourite part of Grade 1 and 2 with Mrs Potts being the guided meditation that she ran after lunchtime. It was her attempt at calming the crazy school kids after running amok on the playground to settle back into school work, but for me it was the perfect moment in my life where I could indulge in my heightened senses in a positive and light way.

Mediumship began to have more meaning and become less scary for me when I was 14 years old and my Mum had recently been diagnosed with cancer for the first time. I was having a private teary moment on the seat in our back garden when I felt the very strong loving presence of someone hugging me, consoling me. I opened my eyes and turned to see them sitting to my left. It was a very clear shadow of a figure. I asked them who they were and the figure pointed to the sign in our garden that I painted when my grandfather passed away that read “Pa”. It was SO clear and undeniable and in that moment he felt me understand. He told me to “turn off the tap” which is something he used to say to me to stop crying when I was a kid and continued to console me. It was extremely comforting at a challenging time in my life and it was the first moment that I learnt that this huge part of my human existence didn’t have to be awful and scary all the time.

I still tried my best to push this part of me away for most of my life. It always felt like a burden and more often than not scary and I didn’t want to believe that it was true. I didn’t go get a reading or watch or read anything in a spiritual sense as I knew it would make it more true and harder to push away. Honestly, pushing this gift of mine away was never very successful though. It was always there in every experience I had - whether it was my nightly vivid dreams that predicted worldly events or the spirits I would see in a movie theatre, there was always a whole other way of seeing life constantly in my field but I rarely shared it with anyone.

Fast forward to 2019 (during my saturn return) and I was experiencing health issues that prevented me from going into work. I spent a lot of time that year isolated at home alone. It was honestly the biggest preparation for the covid lockdown I endured in Melbourne the subsequent years. During this time of sickness, everything became louder. The spirit world became much louder than the physical. I could no longer avoid it. After connecting with a book called “Yolk” by Bernadette Somers, the flood gates opened. Bernadette shares some of her mediumship experiences in the book and it confirmed everything I already knew about how I experience life. Once I finally opened up to this, the messages came flooding in. Upon finishing the last page of the book, I felt the spirits of two women so strongly in my bedroom. I could literally feel the wind from them coming in. They were both mothers of young people in my life. One of them was an old dance friend called Lucy Doherty.

I hadn’t spoken to Lucy for 8 years at this point. I met her through a dance production and the last time I saw her was when I helped with the graphic design of a beautiful show she created when her incredible mother, Jane passed away. I was living in Melbourne and Lucy was in Sydney. We hadn’t even stayed in touch through social media at that time. I looked in my phone and saw that I still had Lucy’s phone number from all those years ago. I called her up and she immediately warmly answered, happy to connect again. I shared the message from her Mum with Lucy which she gracefully accepted and then she said something to me that changed the trajectory of my life…”if you need help setting boundaries I can recommend a teacher to you.” I will forever be grateful to Bernadette, Lucy and Jane for helping me change the way I saw mediumship. It began to transform from being a burden to being a gift and one that I could control rather than fear.

In 2020 when lockdown hit, I went deep. I meditated daily and immersed myself in the teachings of Bree Melanson, the teacher that Lucy recommended to me. I found that through breathwork I was able to move through the fear of mediumship and then through setting up clear boundaries with the spirit world I could safely open to more beautiful experiences with the deceased. This year I began giving readings to my friends and family and new friends that I met through Bree’s course. In 2022, my dear friends Lucy and Sammy convinced me to open up for readings publicly. Once I started I never looked back. I quite quickly realised that this was not something that I could ever not do. Once I saw the impact it was having on people to help them move through grief and connect with their loved ones, I felt like it would be selfish not to do this work. I never really advertised this work (as I had a full time marketing job, graphic design freelance business and two podcasts at the time) but found myself consistently booked. I would give a reading one week and the following week someone would want a reading based off a recommendation from the person I read the week before. This kept going and now we are here today.

A beautiful experience for me has been the connection I have developed with spirit babies since becoming pregnant in 2022. Many of my readings now are for women with spirit babies that are either yet to incarnate or who have had a short experience and not made it through the pregnancy or birth portal. This work is huge. As a female and mother myself, I have deep respect and reverence for what women experience and I move through this work with particular care and gentleness. There is so much healing to be done for women and their mother lines and I am honoured to be supporting them in this lifetime to navigate this.

So yes, I have always been a medium. For 36 years I have been in communication with the deceased.

I have been giving readings for 6 years now...and I can’t see myself ever stopping.